Lost and searching...

Have you still found out what are you on this earth for or shall I ask that are you still lost?  Do you know what you got to do before you knock the doors of heaven (or maybe hell)?

At an age where quite a many would know what they want from life I still sometimes find myself struggling with this search and given the situation now which is immensely beautiful I have kept those fighting thoughts aside. But with time those thoughts reappear and I couldn’t help but feel feeble.

So far I followed all the circumstances that life brought in front of me, afraid of breaking the rules I played the game of life very sensibly but that doesn’t mean I dint had a heart of a child who wanted to cheat or maybe break the rules for once and be a brat (I mean it) but more than anything I was afraid of losing trust of my parents so I did nothing such and the world claims me to be the best daughter (the world that knows me ofcourse).

I never had a goal for my life but that doesn’t mean that my life dint wanted one, too frightened to not to get a chance to follow them I shun them behind the shadows of veiled dreams now it is difficult to catch hold of.

Not that I am upset of following the path that life brought in front of me, but just a curious mind a wild heart is forced to imagine what if I would have had break the rules or may be chosen a path that was extreme to what I lived.

Am I the only one with these struggling thoughts of my existence or are there a few more?

From the lost world have you been found or are you still lost and searching like me? 

- Jayshree